Sitting here looking at the site I see the last post that was updated on the site was sometime in November. That month was the last time I felt enough of an urge to write something that came from a place of freedom. In the two months since I can say honestly that this urge has been slipping, disappearing just like my time and in that I fear that I may be losing it.....
I'm not losing it mentally, I'm losing it creatively and to come to that realization has been slightly disheartening. In the last year and a half I've have seen my creative endeavors fall by the wayside as a more conventional life has crept in and swallowed my time. I have begun to realize how a conventional existence really is a place where dreams go to die. Where the ambitions of so many evaporate in an instant and are replaced by complacency and comfort. This notion of complacency is something I fight with constantly as I struggle not to give into the conventional life and pursue a life that is mine.
Sparks of creativity continue to hit me like waves crashing on the shore, they come in and go out. These sparks of inspiration serve as a continued reminder that this life of monotony has not swallowed me whole.
I've always been a fighter someone who will not give up easily, who is determined to progress forward. At this very moment I am exploring the grey area where I can keep this creative side thriving while also being confined by my conventional job. Stability is important for some, for me it's a means to fund what I want out of this life and I will continue to find a way to that path everyday.
My intention with this site has always been to share my experience, my thoughts and to have an outlet to release my creativity through words. This site is more than just a webpage is a portal to a more authentic self and for that reason I will continue to find methods to keep this alive.
Creativity can only cease if I allow it and my thirst to express will always outdo any aspect of conforming. I may have lost some of my time, but I will never lose myself!
Father, traveler, self trained creative, and spectator of life. The quest is to live a life intentionally, to construct a life of my choosing. I left the comfort of home at the age of nineteen and have been enjoying the Viaje as it unfolds ever since